To prom or not to prom

So what's up? I'm really glad you guys like my new layout so much :), so what's up is that I'm still sick but it's alright I went to school today. Anyway there's something I'd like to take up, a dilemma. Something to do with this.....

I'll tell you a secret if you don't freak out. XD (You probably will but anyway) I haven't been to a prom before. We had a prom when graduating 9th grade but I never went. Nope, I didn't. I guess it was easier for me to say no back then when I just had to do things differently from others (alternativ). I wouldn't do anything that "the rest" would do, another reason I used was that I would go to the one in high school (everyone knew there is one in high school), so I was like I'll wait. I saw everyone getting all hyped for finding a dress or not finding a dress, it was quite amusing actually. And I was basically the only one that didn't come to school the day after with curled hair and old make-up. I got to see some pictures from a couple of friends that went and I was like ok, this was prom. (mostly I watched what people were wearing) Even though my friends said it was fun (or quite fun) I never felt like darn I missed out big time or regretted anything.

So after 3 years it's prom again. (times do fly.....) And now again I just have this feeling that I don't want to go. I've actually been thinking the thing over and I'm like, I admit I'm unsociable when it comes to this kinds of ocassions and I don't want to be remembered like "Omg do you remember Tiffany? The unsocial girl who never went to prom". Really I don't want to be that person.

You might think I'm weird for not wanting to go although I haven't gone to one before. Why is that? Why don't I want to go?
I don't know actually. I guess I've never been that big-social-minlge-dancing-dressing-up kind of type. I like going to the movie. That's safe (XD). I don't know, maybe I'm afraid of people or something. I don't like the whole event thing, being really dressed up, eat (well I don't mind that part..) and dance. I know all of you who have gone to proms and stuff say it's a great time to like hang with friends and make new friends. But why do you need to dress up and dance to make new friends? XD
But to come to the point, to look deep down I think I don't want to go because first; I've got no one to go with (I never understood: going with friends and besides like non of my friends are coming), secondly getting a dress; I still don't like the idea that we have to look and dress in a certain way and probably I will never find a dress I'd like and look good in (because I won't go if I'm not wearing the perfect dress) and thirdly......to be frank I don't think I'll enjoy prom. It's not my thing. I could of course also include the cost but that is actually not a obstacle it's just an excuse I use.

Why should I go? Well, I don't get why some people are like "OMG PROM!!" but still prom is prom and will I'll be like only one person that never went to prom. That'll be like so weird. I'm weird but I wouldn't want people to think I am because of the prom thing.

So here I am all exposed for all of you. What should I do? I don't have much time to think about it anymore.

This foggy morning. Taken with my new cellphone, chchc :P

Catching the cold

Urgh I'm having the worst time, I've caught a cold, I've had worse but still it's awful. So it's difficult thinking straight when I ahev to blow my nose every 5 seconds. Urgh! Anyway I changed my layout (needed a change) and don't mind using my search bar which searched through all my blog posts (don't tap jonas brothers, cuz I've learnt that it's basically all my posts XD). Check out my new song. :) And btw, to comment click on the speech bubble above to the right here.

I'll promise to write more when I get better. Toodles.

Sunny morning in London

Turn off the light!

I've meant to post this the whole week but I've forgot! :'( Anyway I hope you've heard it from other occasions. TOMORRW 28/3 at 20.30-21.30 (Swedish time) millions of people around the world will turn their lights off. This in a gesture for the environment and climate. Let us make an impact on the politicians. Let them know we care about our Earth.

As of this morning 19407 private people in Sweden have registrated they will be a part of this manifestation. I myself have registrated, you can too at: http://www.wwf.se/v/klimat/earth-hour/1196404-earth-hour-2009-startsida

Earth hour 2009

Happy Birthday to me

Today I'm 19 and not a minute younger. What am I to do?! Urgh, ok am being a little bit overdramatic, 19 is alright. But 20?! ...AAAAHHH! XD Besides that...I finally got a cellphone I've wanted since like 3 years back, my dream phone is still a sidekick but this will do. Don't know much about it except it has Sudoku XD. Took me forever even to switch on and off. :P


Otherwise I'm not sure what to do today. It's a really annoying schoolday, we're having a "half-day off" which means I don't have lessons until 12, which in turn means I only have one lessons -FRENCH which commence at 14.30 and ends 15.50, really really annoying. But we're reading this french play "La cantatrice chauve" it's totally bizarre, I like it so it's ok. :)

I'll write you later, Toodles!

F word to you

F F F A A A A A C C C K K K K ! ! !

Viva La Vida by Coldplay

I have put added some comments in the video, be alert. ;) And I play in the string section of you haven't noticed. :P

Lines, Vines, and Trying Times

Hi, I've been away for a while again. There're alot to catch up on.
First, the new Jonas Brothers CD title (which releases 15/6): Lines, Vines and Trying Times. Although rumoured, I LOVE it. It's cool that it rhymes and it's edgy in a way that it's more mature. So, I also found a rumoured track list, which I think definitely is false except for Poison Ivy. I thought of posting it but it really is just so false I can't even do it. :P Anyway Poison Ivy seemed like the only serious one.

THEN I had a concert last Sunday and if you remember I told you we started to play "Viva La Vida" by Coldplay and that was one of the songs we played. We had a band with guitar,bass,drums and we had choir and a solo singer, it was awesome. My sister filmed us, so wait for a clip later today! ;)

Hoho, the new Heroes episode has finally finished uploading, gotta go watch. See ya :D

When you thought they couldn't get any hotter.... ;)

Urggh!

I went to Entré around 2 o'clock in the afternoon (I had a long lunch) on thursday and it was PACKED with people. (well duh) I was quite impressed it reminded me much of Field's in Copenhagen and I bet the cinemas are awesome, haven't been there personally YET but I do have to do it soon. Me and my family went there today, swarmed with people still, but this time I actually had time to see eveything. I kinda feel this I'm-abroad-feeling when I'm there, quite cool.

I went to the cinema yesterday with a friend from class and saw. "Shopaholic" (sometimes aka Confessions of a shopaholic). I was really looking forward to watch another fashion inspired movie after Devil wears Prada (which is genious), to my disappointment however it wasn't at all what I had imagened. I knew it would be a "less serious fashion movie" with comedy but it turned out be just a romantic comedy with the most predictable plot one can imagen. Well I guess I got the movie all wrong from the beginning, anyway it was nice going to the cinema again after so long! It's horrible really. I do miss it.

If I could make posts invisible, this would be one

I knew this a while back just haven't posted it yet. Jonas Brothers are realseing a fourth brand new freakin' album the 15th of June this year. The boys have released a CD everyear since 2006 and even two this year (including the 3D concert soundtrack and the new CD). Incredible.

The rumour has it that these are tracks on new CD, or might be songs from JONAS. And btw they are also releasing a JONAS soundtrack of the songs originally written by the boys for the show, in 15th September. (Argh, can't wait for the show!!!)

There might be another song, something with "Poison Ivy", if you watch the World tour announcement youtube video, they have a a song in the beginning in which Joe sings "Everyone is allergic to Poison Ivy", I think. Darn it sound so awesome, I can't wait for the world tour to start just to lsiten to some of their new songs. Anyway here are the songs:

-Beautiful World

-Lettin’ You Down

-Rhythm Atmosphere

-Sidecar One

And another thing utterly random. NewYorker is opening in Malmö tomorrow (19/20)! The new shopping centre Entré is the one to open and aside from one of my fave. clothes store there are also; Mango, Akademibokhandeln, Gamesstop, Onoff and Deichmann. Malmö's newest cinema, SF cinema with 3D theatres will alo be located in the shopping centre. I know awesome.
I'm not quite sure yet exactly where this shopping centre is but around Värnhem and Östervärn. Make sure to check that out ;)

It'll open 10 o'clock on Thursday morning and on the opening program is among others Carolina Gynning.

First ever exploding brain

Hi I feel like a really lousy blogger at the moment. I can't really get why schoolwork is so difficult for me right now, I thought after the History assignment everything would go back to normal like being not too difficult not too easy. I feel like someone took me brain (look I'm a pirate.....) and squeezed everything from it in a lemon squeezer at the end of each day. I can hardly think straight anymore and at the same time I think too much because of all the things I need to do and work out. All these things have like sucked out the fun of everything now I'm like a zombie, doing things don't know why not really being sociable. Nothing's left in me anymore.

B O O O O O O O O O O O O M M M

That is the sound of the first ever exploding brain, my brain.

I was really eager to watch a new Heroes episode today but it was like even the heavens didn't want me to haev this little pleasure in my life, because it's not coming out due to next monday. (WHHHHYYYy?!?!??!)

Just something random. The new Mcdonalds commercials, pretty funny actually, though only of you read it out loud.

Bittersweet truth

Nothing is ever just easy. Why make it simple when it could be difficult, aggrivating, sad and anxiety causing right?

I found out something that should have been the utterly fantastic and like a dream-come-true. Europe "World tour" dates announced (more to be announced):

Oct 26 Paris, France

Oct 28 Berlin, Germany

Oct 30 Stockholm, Sweden

Oct 31 Malmo, Sweden

Nov 1 Alborg, Denmark

Nov 6 Frankfurt, Germany

Nov 7 Zurich, Switzerland

Nov 8 Turin, Italy

Nov 11 Barcelona, Spain

Nov 13 Rotterdam, Netherlands

Nov 14 Brussels, Belgium

Nov 17 Birmingham, England

Nov 18 Newcastle, England

Nov 20 London, England

Nov 22 Manchester, England

Nov 24 Dublin, Ireland

I wouldn't believe when my friend text messaged me "Are you going to see JB in Malmö"? I was like what the crap what a bad joke. XD But it turned out to be true and can you believe it? They are coming to MY freakin' city? Unbelievably insane! But I never got to really freak out about it because I was in school (I did the Camebridge ESOL examination, went pretty well, nothing else to say :P) other than my heart raced and a quick shriek of WHAT?!

And now I doubt I will do so, look at the date it is 31st OCTOBER. WHERE the hell am I the 31st October this year? Because I seriously don't know! Most positively I'm in London.....or am I? I'm having a really bad case of desicion-agony right now. Can I really go and study...in LONDON? All the questions about money, living, different school systems came up again and now I'm not sure I can see them in a positive light anymore.

Gotta praise the unknown right.... *sigh*

Wait, Heroes will save the day

I got off watching the 6th episode of Heroes season 4 "Shades of Gray" and I felt this excitement and anxiousness to watch the next episode, this I haven't felt since the beginning of season 2. I actually think Heroes is going somewhere now, back to the ways of season 1 (the best one). I'm really intrigued to see what's going to happen to Nathan (and Claire) and for once in a very long time I think Hiro and Ando will bring in some fun in the show again. I've missed this unknown, intriging, gasping Heroes (Matt almost blowing up, Sylar almost being killed).
What I don't like is the "Whatever happened to..?" question that I ask myself oh so frequently. Whatever happened to Micah? Monica? West? Caitlyn (irish girl stuck in the future)? I don't like that it seems that they have forgotten about them and I mostly don't like when I don't know who's dead for sure and who's just "dead". Elle is not dead, I JUST KNOW IT!

WHO IS REBEL?

I don't know but I hope it's someone new and good. XD I've had it with too many bad guys.
I started to lose faith in the show during season 3 but I just kept hoping it'll get better. Heroes was (is) the best show I've ever come across and it really respond to everything I look for in a show.There's a cancelling buzz on the show and I hope with all my heart that the show doesn't go down that way, at least let it end well. I'll keep faith and keep watching it until the episode Peter dies.

Blast form the past. Do you remember her?

Pretty Face

Whatever I do it seems like Pretty Face will be there.

Anxiety

Sorry guys. The anxiety monster ate me. I'm dwelling in an neverending mist filled with black horrible anxiety.

A N X I E T Y a n x i e t y AaNnXxIiEeTtYy

How the hell will I work this out?

This history assignment is my worst nightmare.

Help!

Sharp intake of breath and I keep falling into the mist.

Will I die now?

Revealing the secrets of parents meetings

First of all I want to wish my friend Meks a very Happy 19th B-day. (Yikes, we are getting old aren't we?) Thank you for never stop being so encouraging and kind.

I went to a parents meeting today. Yes, a parents meeting and no I'm not a parent. My brother's class, whose 15, were going to have a parents meeting today. Most commonlt it's my dad who goes to these stuff, only this week my dad is working late and my mum had just got off from work and was just to tired to go. (...) So she asked me to go in her place. I was like..ookej. So it ended with that me and my sister went, I mean together we are 34- a normal parent! XD

From my point of view there were two things that made me actually agreeing on going. First I've never gone to a parents meeting (actually no) and secondly I haven't been to my secondary school (grundskola) since I ended 9th grade. When we went to the school 6 o'clock these thoughts started to go through my head, how will the parents react when a 18 and a 16 year old comes to their parents meeting, how will the teachers react, will my brother be taunted at tomorrow?, will there be cookies? XD

Actually it wasn't that strange, the teachers didn't say anything they didn't even look twice at us for being weird or something. There were 8 parents there of 27 students, talk about the parents not caring. So while waiting of more parents to show up, the parents there started to small-talk to each other. I caught up something about the financial crisis, the dollar going up and the krona going down, adopting to euro etc. Interesting stuff, so this is what parents talk about when they meet.

After a while no more people showed up and the teachers started to talk. blablabla class trip blalbalba parent-teacher conference blabla. No wonder parents didn't show up, this is boring. XD Then we came to the every famous: Anymore questions? And as surprised I was myself I had something to say. I raised my hand (as I was in class XD) and I told them about the one time my brother had 3 tests in a week and that they shouldn't have more than 2 tests in a week. (In Sweden there's like a law saying you cna only have 2 tests in a week in school) And the teachers started to like squirm and like: yeah...yeah...yeah. Even the parents filled in and agreed with me. The teachers made a conclusion that they would be more careful when they put in a test.

The very first parents meeting ever and I already made an impact. Beat that! XD

A freakin' 3D concert experience!

Guess what I bought today....

I don't know what I was thinking when I first heard of the concert experience live soundtrack CD and decided not to buy it. I kinda hate live songs, or I do. And of all horrors imagen Jonas Brothers live songs, more and louder girl screams are hard to find I tell ya. Like during their WYLMITE tours in US when they played burnin' up, pushing me away and those songs for the first time. I had them downloaded and even kept listening to them until the actual album was released. By the end I knew when there was a certain scream int he songs and stuff. It kinda made me deaf but it was all cool. XD

OK back to the subject. I was like no I'm not gonna get the live CD, I mean its just songs I already ahve and in LIVE even! Then I guess "Love is on its way" changed a lot of that view. This is a brand new song of theirs and isn't on any album (yet!) and by the 270 listenings in a week you maybe can imagen how fond I am of that song.
Then last week I totally got an impuls and ordered the CD on the website (to buy in the store) and it came today and I bought it. It was pretty expensive though but now when I have listened thorugh it, so much worth the money. Haha. You should have seen me, I was insane singing and dancing and almost even screaming while listening to the songs. So with that in mind, what will happen whem I actually watch the 3D concert movie?

AARRGHHH! It's unbearable to sit here and not knowing the exact date it comes out in Sweden. Let us review my theory, these are the dates in Finland and Norway; 20/3, 24/4. If it doesn't premiere in Sweden the 20th March I will have a freak out.

Crap, I didn't like this song the first time I heard it...

A real week-end

Have you guys gotten tired of me?

So here I am at the end of my first real week-end in almost my entire life. I mean a reagular week-end that meant no school or work in two days. I have had chinese class in saturdays since like I was five and 3 years ago i started with this mail advert delivering thing, which was on weekends. Then I quit chinese and I quit the job. So this weekend was my first real weekend. Still I had to go to the library to finish a project with a classmate on saturday and study the both days, but I still felt I had so much free time. It was great! :)

I made a video for 5 hours today. A cover of "When You Look Me In The Eyes-Jonas Brothers", hope you can check me out: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rikTGujnweg

It's not my best and I'm not quite content with it but for 5 hours...it'll do.

This is a result of mote than 256 listenings of this song in 6 days. Not tired of it yet.

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