I've just finished watching an epsiode of Ugly Betty (S4E12) and it was about Betty feeling lonely and that she don't connect with people. That she could just go home and shut the door and she could basically die and no one would notice it before they could smell her rotting corpse.

It's actually freakishly exactly how I feel, all the time. I've always prided in being different and so self-confident that I don't have to fit in. Now I've got my way, I fit in nowhere. And I hate it, I hate that I'm so boring, I hate that I take school so seriously, I hate that can't talk to people, I hate that I don't know how to be around people, I hate that I'm always that weird person, I hate that I don't drink, I hate that I'm so serious, I hate that I don't have stories to tell, I hate that I don't meet people, I hate that it's so hard for me to makes friends, I hate that I don't connect with people, I hate that I actually cried when writing this but most of all I hate that I pretend to be EXACTLY the opposite of these things.

That's why I hate reading blogs, because I hate reading about your lives and everything you do and all of your stories because I myself have none.

I'll never be good enough

My song addiction at the moment. Love headbanging to this.

Make Me Wanna Die by The Pretty Reckless

The summer of the summers

Hello dears,
New sunny day in Londonland, although I don't think rain couldn't bring me down at a time like this. I'm absolutely in love with having sumemr break and I'm sure you guys will soon as well. I've decided this summer is gonna be ah-mazing.

I'm gonna read loads (starting with Sherlock Holmes)
I'm gonna make some money (helping my friend's parents out)
I'm gonna convert to new music (OH YES, you heard me. It's gonna be a interesting project and I'm gonna keep you updated)
I'm gonna drive (Oh yes AGAIN, believe it or not I'm gonna try taking my drivers license this summer)
I'm gonna watch loads of movies (basically every movie on Canal+, but I'm also gonna catch up on some golden oldies like The Breakfast club)
I'm gonna take loads of photos (everytime I go out, I swear and hopefully start a street style blog)
I'm gonna meet all my friends (yes I will)
I'm gonna play loads of guitar (on my lovely Fender)
I'm gonna bike a lot (Malmö, watch out)
I'm gonna keep myself updated with the Election (Yohoo, my first government election)

Are you ready for this? ;)

Like a satellite, I’m in an orbit all the way around you

Hey,
If you happen to like crappy writing and have some minutes to spare, read my review. I need feedback. :P

SSOOOOOOOOO, I'm Summer holiday biyatch! INSANE! I didn't think I'd make it, can't believe I'm done with my first year! It just hit me the other day, how crazy is that?! It's been a hello of a rocky road but I appreciate it, I've learnt a lot, a lot!

I'm gonna have 2 free weeks in London before I make my way back to Svea land. :) It's weird because I usually don't have time to actually do things in London, I'm absolutely gonna make up for lost time. After all it is LONDON for crying out loud. :) Two fo my friends from Sweden is coming here 7th of June. We're gonna have an awesome week inlcuding a trip to Bournmouth, can't wait.

I'm also looking for flats at the moment, I'm gonna move from here! (YYEESS! XD) Me and 2 other girls is gonna share and I'm really looking forward to it. :)

And if you haven't noticed I rooted for Germany on Eurovision song contest. Isn't Lena the cutest person you've ever seen? Gosh I wanna marry her. XD

Will that be all, Mr Stark?

(As I post this I'm so high on sleepyness I don't know why I'm doing this. It's part of my portfolio. Jenny I don't really mean it.)

In the success of Batman, Spiderman, Fantastic four and the whole bunch of comic-book leotard dressed heroes, comes Iron Man (2008). With less of the leotards and more of a flying robot suit, Iron Man is best entertaining for comic-book nerds and 14 year old boys.

The movie centers Tony Stark (Robert Downey Jr.), an egocentric, multi billionaire, womanizing weapon developer (which also can be translated into every guy’s dream).

Life is a ball for Tony until he gets kidnapped by Afghan terrorists, get a blue shining pacemaker-like device operated into the chest and forced into building a super missile weapon for the terrorists. Together with another captive he secretly builds a robot suit to help them escape (I’m sure a robot suit is the first thing that pops into your head when you want to flee from terrorists).

After a not so teary death of his construction companion and the realization that his weapons were actually used to kill people, he has a change of heart. No more weapons, he wants to help people now. With that said the whole first hour of the movie is already gone.

Despite a great performance by Robert Downey Jr., the movie falls short in too many places. While the cliché one liners, including “Keep the skies clear” and “I am Iron man”, made male viewers in the age between nine and 14 think ‘Wow, Tony is badass’, they almost made me want to throw up and a chair at the TV screen. Not even the funny lines went all the way home, they felt so rehearsed I’m sure I could see the reflection of the script in their eyes.

I can see that they were trying to pull a Batman begins and that’s why 90 minutes of the 121 min movie was spent on looking at Tony building the Iron man suit rather than him actually doing something with it. As an individual movie Iron man is just too little too late.

Will that be all, Mr Stark?
We do hope so.

Movies to watch

Charlie St. Cloud
I just cried my eyes out to this. MUST SEE!

Interception
"Your mind is the scene of the crime" man, you got me already. Cool seeing Ellen Paige doing action, thought she'd get stuck in indie movies.

Toy Story 3
Thought this was getting a bit too much buzz, but of course I'll watch it anyway. Toy Story is my childhood! XD

Knight and Day
Looks like a turkey, probably gonna be a turkey but I think it could be very entertaining. I like funny Tom Cruise. Or maybe I just really like the fact that they have Uprising-Muse in the trailer. XD

I get that alot

This is beyond brilliant. Freakin' epic!

Cuz' I think the Jonas Brothers are kinda..ugh

My day was so crappy until just moment asgo when I saw these clips. Oh my, Nick you're making my sides hurt. Man, why don't we see this kind fo acting in JONAS?

And this clip is all the better. Love that lady at 1.03; "But you know what, you look better."

Dude, are you for real?

So it's late at night and it might make me bitchier than usual but this is the deal.

This is the Justin Bieber deal.

It's not a secret that I think the Justin Bieber hype is ridonkulous but I was always just following the flow with some moterate tweet hating and snorting out loud everytime someone says his name. I HAVE heard some of his songs, to be more exact 2 one of which I don't remember but the other one is Baby, (only because I listen to Radio Disney and I'm too lazy to change station). I was like alright 14 year whose voice hasn't broke singing about girls, alright. But that's the new society I guess, and I guess he must be attractive somehow in order to make all these fans crazy. It's not I've never seen his photo but he doesn't look like himself on all those CD covers does he?!
But I'm a person who's not really comfortable trashing something I don't know, so just like Twilight I now have a green card for ranting on Justin Bieber.

I don't know why and what made me click on Baby on youtube and watch the music video. So don't ask me. I had watched around 50 seconds and the first "ddduuuuuddee!" comes into my head.

Is this dude for real? First of all to be honest he is actually one unattractive kid with a bowl cut and tacky clothes. He just looks so beyond plain it almost hurt. So this is the guy all the girls are screaming and crying for I mean at least Joe Jonas is hot. XD We're in the bloody 21th century have you heard of a stylist? (And is he doing some sort of commercial for those plastic watches? He wears all the time)

As it's not bad enough seeing this plain 10 year old acting all cool and doing heart signs with his hands, he also acts flirty?! DDDUUUUUUDDDEEEEEEEEEEE. Tugging the girl's jacket, following her touching her chin, touching her there touching her here. DDDUUUUUUDDDDEEEEEE. I can't hardly buy when you sing about girls in your songs and you act all canoodling with girls in you video?!?! DUUUUUUUUUUUUDDDEEEEEE, are you for real? You don't know nothin' 'bout them girls alright?!

And I can even see through that gangsta image with this "girl" being latino and his friends being black. DDUUUDDDEEE, you're an insanely skinny ass white dude. Who are you trying to fool?!

I've got 3 advices for you Justin Bieber;
one, get a stylist and a personal trainer
two, don't act flirty
three, stop tredning on Twitter (we have had enough)

Wire-freakin'-less

Zup,
Don't know if you guys noticed that I was absent online yesterday? My internet was down the whole day (the internet was down in the whole building), I was not online during the whole freakin' day. Just the fact that I couldn't access the internet made me almost sufficate. Every five minutes I kept hitting that refreshing network button. It was insane, I felt like I was back in the stone age. My laptop was basically of no use without the internet. Well, it's lucky though you don't have to have itnernet to listen to iTunes or else I'd be dead by now.

It just shows how dependent we've (I've) become on the internet. It's like out whole life revolves around cyberworld. How could this have been? It was just 10 years ago the internet was basically founded and now we basically can't live without it. If you're not online it takes you 10 million times harder to find things, contact someone, find out about something, be updated with something and the list goes on forever. It's scary.

But curiously enough I felt I had a lot more time to do things yesterday. There were not as much stuff to distract me. It was liberating somehow.

So I've decided, this summer I'm gonna have at least ONE DAY I won't be online when I actually can be. Wanna join me? :)

Food for thought

When coursework deadline approaches, my life is on hold.

Hey beautiful world

I'm a master of myself depressed. But I do think the chocolate worked a little bit.

So I'm kind of in the middle of my exam revision weeks and it's just a lot of pressure. Especially with my Online journalism essay I really wanna do well cuz I know I A'd all of the other parts. The essay is really unmotivating and frankly I don't know how to write it well (well enough for A).

I have 2 exams in 2 weeks. Marketing and Mandarin. Marketing is a pain there are so many models to remember. I don't worry about Mandarin that much however I didn't do as well as I thought I could on the listening and speaking exam. Stupid roleplay.

Well the nightmare doesn't really end after my exams either, I still have a portfolio of articles and an essay to write until the 28th of May, of which the essay I haven't even started writing.

So today was one of those days I lay in bed thinking, pondering, wondering, trying to make sense of why I constantly put myself into these psychological challenging situations. It feels like I'm literally tearing my brain up with all of these decisions, issues, pressure and guilt I must go through.

There has to be some advantages of being me. I don't see any of them right now.

Hey, beautiful world. When will I live with you?

The Tiffany Collection

Hey,

So I decided to create a new blog, it's sort of a cross-over of my Tumblr and Twitter but alot more random. I'm still not really sure why I made a new blog, I guess I didn't feel like a had any platform to just be artsy, poetic and random. Or maybe I just felt really bad for not blogging properly. XD

I'll still keep this one up and together with everything else (tumblr, twitter and whatever) So here's my other blog: http://tiffanyalwaysknows.blogspot.com/

What it says

You know it! It's 12 degrees, almost cloudless and sunny day, perfect polling day.

I didn't really know I was entitled to vote since I don't really live here but I guess I was wrong, although I could only vote for my local government. So somehow I got registered to vote and then somehow I got involved in the campaigning, debates and the whole shite.

The campaigning, election system, voting, basiaclly everything is all very different from Sweden. The campaigning for a start is sooo much mroe agressive here, politicians go canvassing (knocking doors and giving out flyers), send you letters/flyers/and whatever, parties direct target rival aprties in campaign ads and so on. And people actually hangs up signs in their windows, cars, doors things saying "Labour winning here" "I'm voting Lib Dem" etc. I was actually very surprised when I first saw one of thos signs, I mean in Sweden people don't even tell family members who they're voting for!

After following some of the campaigning and watching the debate, they say alot but really says nothing. What they really do is trashtalking other parties policies rather than actually campaigning their own policies. But what are you going to do? We all know politicians are a shady kind of people.

Anyway, so I voted in the Untied Kingdom and I feel kinda cool atm. XD I'm looking forward catching up with the Swedish election this summer, it's gonna be awesome. :)

Questions people never ask me 2.0

Which is your favourite fantasy world?
Oh, tough one. Probably a tie between Wonderland-Narnia-Neverland

If you could've been in any movie (already-made), which would it be?
Not gonna lie, any Harry Potter movie.

Who would you like to share a on-screen kiss with?
Plastic wrapper kiss with Lee Pace or just a normal one with Zac Efron, either one is good. XD

Who should get a Twitter account?
Dakota Fanning, Tina Fey, Emma Watson, my cousins in Vietnam, just to name a few.

Have you ever been heartbroken?
Si.

What are your news habits?
BBC's website, Smooth radio (news headlines even hours) Metro (print, UK version), The Evening standard (print), Guardian (online, print too boring), Metro (online, Sweden version), DN (online) and I will also make myself watch Rapport on SVT play more often and Twitter's trending topic of course. :).

Where do you stand politically?
Centre-left.

What camera do you use?
Olympus E-420

Ice-cream or Frozen yoghurt?
Frozen yoghurt.

I make pictures sometimes

I'm weird like that

Ddduuuuuuuddeeeeee.

So I realized I'll probably never blog the way I used to anymore, which is sad really but I can't go on pretending I will. Now I basically take more pictures than blog XD. So really, if you follow my tumblr you'll keep uo with what I do and where I go, in a kinda artistic way. XD So here's a photo update.

Anyway, last couple of weeks me and my friend has gone on these "explore London weekend". Last week we went to Hampstead, this really snobby area where people on picnic drink champagne and eat cheese (not kidding). Here we are on parliament hill in hampstead heath, overlooking the London skyline. (The picture's not the best and pretty small while uploaded, but I'm sure I can spy the gerkin).


Boy chasing dog.

Some weekend ago we went to Regent's park. Here's a dude sitting under the trees and reading. Of the parks I've been to in London Regent's park is no doubt my fave. It's absolutely beautiful.

Ok, peace out.