Danger to the left

Urgh, I've sold my soul to Twitter. I have, I'm sorry. :'( I wish I hadn't but I'll try to be strong and fight it! XD

I actually don't have any good reasons for why I haven't blogged since Monday when school for me basically ended. Lazy I guess. I feel like I've neglected my blog and you readers and I feel horrible. I have a lot going on in my life right now, university deciding for example.
You thought I had decided and even I thought so too, but now just a couple of days ago I started to doubt. Is this what I'm supposed to be? How do I know this is right? WHY is the future so difficult?!?! I spent like an hour crying yesterday not knowing what to do but I'm alright now. It's better. :)

Then graduation is just around the corner, to be precise: in 3 DAYS. I can't believe I'm graduating in 3 days, yes I had to write it again for me to realize it. I am graduating. I am 19. The rest of my life starts now. The future is inevitable. I can't alomsot believe it and I probably won't until it's really happening. But it's gonna be awesome, I'm graduating with a class I'm really fond of and we're going to kick ass. :) See you from our truck, we'll be the loudest ones! Haha. :)

Major JONAS news. On their facebook livechat yesterday they gave a short preview of all the songs on "Lines,Vines and Trying Times". I've commented each as I heard them on my Twitter, so those are my immediate reactions...haha. XD Their sound is COMPLETELY different if I wasn't hearing Joes och Nicks voice in those songs I'd never know it was their songs. They've mixed in different genres in their new songs and it should be really interesting to hear. For example there's this song "What did I do to your heart" that has alot of country in it and one song "Don't charge me with the crime" that has rap in it (not them rapping of course XD). As of this moment I can't really say my favourites so far because I'm absolutely enthralled by the full verision of "Fly With Me". I CAN'T TELL YOU HOW BEAUTIFUL THIS SONG IS. (Tried with writing it in caps hopes it works :P). I cried and still cries listening to it, the bridge is like criminally beautiful it's insane. I HAVE TO see "Night at the museum 2", which this song comes up in the ending credits. I will see it ASAP! Like tomorrow or so. XD

Here; listen and cry. :')

I am not graduating soon..[edited]

...In 9 freakin' days? o_o
I'm at the very last part in my History essay and I will soon break out in cheer and tears, but not quite yet. :(

But anyway here's a list of suggestions for my graduation present: (really I'm not spoiled I just want to make it easier for you guys who are coming to my graduation, thanks btw!)

-A summer job (TOP prior!)

-A digital longzoom camera (or a system camera)
-Subscription to TeenVogue (or any fashion magazine)

-Books in English or Swedish (I like crime and detective novels ;)

-Perfume (Daisy-Marc Jacobs, Princess-Vera Wang perhaps..:P)

-Hair straightener (Plattång...rite?)

-A guitar case (proper hard one not in fabric)

-Funding in British pounds (I mean money XD)

-(If you have to buy china or glass then buy) Matching tea cups XD

-(If you have to buy jewellry then buy) Rings or necklaces XD

I think that's basically it, but then of course I love going to the movies and buy clothes to giftcards would be very nice. And then OF COURSE you all know what I'd die for anything with......

....ya know! XD

Oh and btw I hope you haven't missed the music video to "Paranoid": http://vids.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=vids.individual&videoid=57667771

When life gives you lemons...

...write a history essay!

Actually this absence is killing me (too XD) Gotta write this (last) stupid history essay about Swedish foreign policy during the second world war. Like YYEESS! XD

Have faith, keep checking my twitter :)

What if..

What if I can never love again?

...

Paris, J'adore!

Paris was wonderful, even though I've been there like every summer since I was born there are always something new to see and experience. Since I've been there so many times I felt like I've seen it all I've "been there done that", kinda. So I decided that I would relax at this trip, really just chill and take everything as it comes. I think it was this approach that made everything so worth it and enjoyable. We had a lot on our schedule and everything we did always took twice as much time as it was possible. XD (I mean it took like 40 minutes for us to buy metro tickets -_-) If I had in mind to do shopping and do this and do that I would be furious at the pace we were doing things, it was laughingly slow, but I wasn't. I helped alot with directions and in the metro it was like always I who showed the way, beacause our teachers basically had no clue..XD

We saw ALOT and we went to parts of Paris I've never went to and it was great. Paris has so much to give it's impossible to see everything in 4 days. But it seemed like our teachers were determined to do it all, we walked like 5 hours average each day. I'd come back to the hotel in the evening with awfully sore feet and I couldn't do much besides laying in bed and watch french TV. Btw I love french TV even though I hardly understand 3% of it. I especially like their commercials, I just love the way they talk. Or maybe it just reminds me of the visits to my grandma's during the summers. Geesh you gotta love it XD. The weird thing was one of us got a room just a floor below us and he had canal+ and disneychannel (!! XD) and all we had were like national geographic and a badly recieved CNN. So unfair! So every evening I'd go down and watch some disneychannel in his room. It was awesome, haha! :)

I met with my cousin on tuesday and I always feel a bit nervous meeting relatives because I almost never meet them. But what's so fantastic about my cousin is she's always so open and positive that it feels like we never were apart like we were just picking up from where we left last summer. It's great. We did some shopping (bought shoes,t-shirt, hair clips and eventually also jeans) I wanted to buy CDs and check out DVDs and stuff but Fnac (I was at les Halles) is just so over the top expensive so I didn't even bother look any further. (I mean Demi Lovato "Don't Forget" deluxe edition for 25€ that's insane XD) We then went home to her and I just got this wonderful feeling of being home. My grandma and aunt had made like the nicest and biggest dinner. I felt like I hadn't eaten real food in years. I basically lived on buns, pommes frites and baguettes during those 4 days.

All in all, the trip was wonderful. There are so many beautiful places in Paris that I haven't seen or discovered. I thought I've experienced Paris but I haven't there are so much more. I love it, can't wait to come back. :)
1st photo: Eiffel tower, 2nd photo: Moulin Rogue, 3rd photo: by the Louvre 4th photo: inside Notre Dame

Me at prom

About pictures from prom. There are like only really awful pictures of me at prom, so didn't really wanted to show you guys but here it goes anyway. XD I thought I looked pretty nice in the mirror just on photos I look awful, urk I'm really not photogenic. XD

Dress from Mango, hecklace from Ur&Penn, gloves from Indiska, headband and purse from Glitter.

Here are som other photos from our prom: http://www.040event.com/Latin_heleneholm_bal1.html